From the moment you hold that positive Clear Blue test in your hands up to the moment the baby is about to be born, one is 'expecting' or just 'waiting'. So here I am at 38+ weeks, waiting for the first signs of a baby that wants to get out into the world and I can tell you one thing: I really miss the ignorance of 2.5 years ago when I was in the same boat, awaiting Sophia's arrival! Not that I'm scared of the actual delivery, no. It's more that I cannot deal with the unpredictability of this baby's arrival; it could be any time between now and 4 weeks from now.. During the day I'm absolutely fine, tired maybe and not as active as I'd like to be, but just plodding on doing things I like to do in preparation for this new baby's arrival. But once I'm closing my eyes at night, my subconscious is taking me on a mad rollercoaster ride instead of allowing me to sleep quietly- the sleep I need so much!
I know I'm ready, but my subconscious wants to jeopardise that feeling. I think the hormones are largely to blame for this... I won't say: go away you all, as I'll need some of these hormones to survive it all - it's all part of the waiting game, sigh...
To be continued...
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